IF I COULD JUST KEEP RUNNING

In my mind they are the same as the day I ran away.  

This visit was different. The idea was to empty the house of the last 40 years of family belongings.  To prepare my childhood home for sale, so they can begin the next chapter of their life. 

But they are older.  They seem weaker.  Every detail is different than I remember.  Have I really been gone so long?  

It is a stark reminder that they will not always be there, just because they have always been there.  I could push this feeling away if I keep running.  I wish I made it clear how I feel.